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Happy New Year!!

Sunday, December 31, 2006

In a couple of hours time, it'll be 2007. It seems that 2006 past by in a blink of the eye, and I had not done much in this year.

What were my resolutions for 2006? Erm... I can't seem to remember. Ops.. What was the things that I did that is worth remembering? Only 2: Passing my driving test on 7 March 2006 and my debut performance with Earth Bloomers for a song composed by me and Kui Bao for TPSD, Eagles of a New Beginning, yesterday.

Actually, my life condition was really fluctuating since 19 December. I very much wanted to blog on that, but I don't feel like starting a topic on it yet. I call it being plain lazy. I guess I'll write a lot a lot on if if I were to start it, and I'll blog till tomorrow morning. So let's wait till next time (procrastinating.. I don't even know if I blog it the next time..)

Ok, so let me blog on my resolutions instead. Hope that I'll remember them by the end of next year..

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Ok. I guess I couldn't come out with it yet. HaiZ.. I had been sneezing and tearing.. Couldn't concentrate.

So, Happy New Year people!!

LA~mour @ 8:33 PM

Merry Christmas!!

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Merry Christmas!!

Okay. I guess I've left a Christmas Greeting to all those who are linked up by me. Job should be done.

In a few minutes time, it'll be Christmas. But I'm blogging.

Haha. Pathetic. Last year, I could still be at K box with Geraldine and Huiwen for count down. But now? At home sleep. Haha. Okay. Geraldine is busy lar. Then 2 people like not much fun. So all at home kun lo..

Anyway, we'll be having another jamming sesssion at my place tomorrow morning for the GSF. Have to sleep early anyway.

But KuiBao not here. His life is so good. Holiday-ing..

Hopefully the practice tomorrow is better than Saturday's, and Wednesday's rehearsal will be better than tomorrow's and Saturday's GSF performance will be the best, and Sunday's 39th GM will be better than the best!! It was really bad on Saturday. Anyway, I'll update that again.

Merry Christmas Again!! And Happy New Year!!

LA~mour @ 11:35 PM

Happy Birthday to me...

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁

一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难,想切割切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点

生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了
生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你的一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐

LA~mour @ 12:10 AM

Fluctuation

Monday, December 18, 2006

I finally knew why I fell.

I went to SNCWE prac on Sat, finding NiKee with 4 stiches at her chin, as she fell on Wednesday too. This tells me that my fall is really nothing.

I went to my 4D discussion meeting after that, and found a WD asking why she always fell and fall sick after visiting a funeral. I told them I fell too. Twice. On my way to homevisits. And what does this mean?

Airena fell yesterday during our "The Race of Wat, The Watt of Race". She only suffered a little scratches on her knees, but her jeans was torn at that part. This made me tell her that the fall is nothing, and she was brave to pick herself up, and showed her my wound.

So my fall was not for nothing.

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After a very heavy weekend, I finally am able to rest. I'm on leave from today till thursday, doing nothing at home.

I'm not sure what I can accomplish this week. My reason for taking leave, was so that my friends at work (I don't call them colleagues. They are more than that to me..) won't celebrate my birthday with me. I don't want to make them busy by celebrating it for me, cracking their brain for a gift for me, and making a surprise for me. These are to be done by me to them. I'm not that worthy of them treating me this way. I'll feel bad about it. That's why i took leave, to save them from these.

I remember I cried on my way home last year, after they celebrated my birthday with me and Tracy at Swensons at Changi Airport. That was because that was the first birthday without my family then, as I had moved in with my aunt. Another was seeing him unexpectedly just 2 1/2 hours before my birthday then, without knowing if he knew that it was my birthday in a few hours' time. The last, was me feeling very touched by my friends at work, which I very much wanted to tell them immediately then, but again, these words got stuck in my mouth, and couldn't come out. Not even in sms.

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Yesterday Rained. Heavily. After having fine weather in the mornings for a week. It's not just me and the Bishan FDICs who didn't put in more than enough daimoku. All the zones who held their outings yesterday too.

It was raining like nobody's business yesterday. Rain. Stop. Rain again. Stop again. Rain somemore. And stop finnaly when we ended the gathering.

We moved our outing from the MacRitchie Reservoir to a few blocks in Bishan. We dragged the timing initally, by going to and fro MacRitchie Reservoir, but eventually, managed to complete our game, and finished on time.

I was really a challenge to us, as well as the SICs, and the students. We must not feel dampened by the rain, and instead, must be able to heighten the spirits of those who were there.

I very much want to thank Yueshan, Joey, Melanie, Vivien for their help in the race, and Gwyrence for helping Ming Wei to collect our lunch. Without them, I don't think Yunting and me can do much, without Chee Poh and Daniel there.

I was so shag when I reach home, that I don't feel like moving already. I ran to here, ran to there.. My leg, hands, shoulders, and even waist are aching now.

After which, Raymond called me, and gave me a deadline of submitting all the information he asked from me for the GSF by 10pm last night. I was like breaking down after hanging up his call. I couldn't take it anymore.

Thank you Kui Bao. It's really my good fortune to ask you to help me in the song 2 years ago. Or I won't be able to move on now. Thanks for settling it together with me. Am really appreciative of your actions. It's my initiative to get this song done, to submit this song to GSF, and also me who felt like giving up on it.

I do feel like a burden to others at times. I admit a can be a tortise at times. I even thought of how nice it would be to slip into a coma, and waking up finding that GSF was over, and had been a success. But still, I know that I may have to face other challenges ahead when I wake up. And what about my parents and those who are concerned about me? I am just being selfish not to consider their feelings.

THANK YOU eveyone! Without anyone of you around, passing my in my life, or staying permanently, I won't be able to go so far. I might have just given up, collasped, or just went crazy long time ago..

Anyway, it's raining like nobody's business again.

LA~mour @ 10:58 AM

Again.. Perhaps..

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Teletubbies say, "Again! Again!"

Yup, again.. I fell again. Yesterday.

Just like the last fall, I was on my way on a homevisit. Again, I was carrying my laptop in my hands. Both homevisits are in Ang Mo Kio. This time, YT, M and V were with me. They helped me up.

This fall is not exactly the same as the last though. I was not wearing skirt. I was wearing jeans. I didn't step on a banana skin. I didn't lift my leg high enough and tripped on an uneven road. I didn't fall nicely with my leg tucked under me. I fell on my fours. My leg didn't bleed. My hand did.

My laptop is still working.. If not, how did I put up this post? Haha.

Anyway, after the fall, I was laughing all my way even until I finished my homevist, and reached home a few hours later. I was laughing at how I fell, and comparing both the falls, which happened in only 2 days apart. I was joking, that either I don't go for homevisits in Ang Mo Kio again to avoid falling, or I continue to go Ang Mo Kio and continue fall until my "falling karma" is completely eradicated.

When YT asked how come I can still laugh when I fall at both times, and make a joke out of it too, V said that some people just laugh their embarassment out.

Perhaps. Cos I told them, that if it were to happen years ago, I would have cried out in pain. Though the wounds are still painful now, I do not feel it as a big deal.

Perhaps it was after how I saw the lady whose leg fell into the gap between the MRT train and the platform, and how she didn't dare to look up, or even thank the people who helped her, that I felt that it is better to thank them, than to feel embarassed and forget about doing things human do: gratitude and appreciation.

This is all human. The other people could jolly well sit there, or walk pass you, without helping you, letting you get up yourself, or letting your leg continue to be stuck in between the doors, and be further injured by letting the door close on your leg.

They are nobody to you. Why do they help you? Because they are human too. Do you want to allow tragedies to happen with the knowlege that you can prevent it? I think most won't bare to do it. Humans are born kind. That's what I believe.

As the Chinese saying goes: 人之初，性本善。

LA~mour @ 10:37 AM

A New Post

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Ok, it's been a long time since I last posted an entry.

Haven't had the mood to blog since some time ago. Too busy.

Actually, I fell down just now, while on my way to a homevisit. Haha.. It's really my good fortune that everytime I fell down, I won't sprain my ankle. If not, it'll be even worse.

Why do you think I fell this time? Haha.. A BANANA SKIN! I thought this only happens in TV, and it actually happened to me! Luckily I didn't fall with my four limbs up. Haha.. YT was with me when I fell, and she say I fell with such a style, as if the fall was choreographed, as if I can choose how to fall.. Haha.. Not that I wanted to fall, and fall nicely, but I had to protect the laptop that I was holding on my hand then. And I was wearing a skirt too.. What's my choice?

Very funny too.. I fell on my right leg, but my left hand has some scratches, and my left leg bleed.. And, once again, I noticed it was bleeding only after walking past a few blocks. And my right leg? No signs of injury.. Hmm..

And just now, I saw a touching scene at my neighbourhood.

Younger Brother: Jie jie, don't walk so fast. Be careful not to fall down. (He spoke this in Mandarin)

The boy is around 3 years old? The girl should be 4 years old ba.. Touching ba..

I guess I'll end this entry in this way. Ha.

After this week ba, perhaps I'll write more then. :P

LA~mour @ 7:46 PM