I cried at office today again. My life condition is not that high today. I'm having headache and stomachache, and these are making me wanting to sleep. After receiving Becky's sms, I could not hold back my tears anymore.

I miss you, Becky.. I wanted to reply your sms, telling you how much I'm missing you. Do you know that I've been crying a lot recently? Sometimes the tears only flowed in my heart. Small little things can get me emotional easily..

I went to Ming Cai's father's funeral wake last night. As we were chanting and going through the ceremony, I suddenly recalled the scenario of my grandfather's wake. I remembered how my brother was fighting back his tears, but allowed his emotions to be shown when mom hugged him and cried together. He must have thought why Ah Gong did not wait for him to complete and get his "O" Level's result. He had plans to stay and accompany Ah Gong after completing his "O" Levels. I recalled seeing my grandfather, holding his hands and singing to him the day before he died. I still remembered the exact sitting position of him and me in the living room as I sang to him. I remembered how we lost my sister Mandai Crematorium after the cremation, only to find her crying in the toilet - she did not answer to our call when we were in the toilet.

Time flies. It's already the fourth month and my brother got his "O" Level's results - 14 for L1R4, 17 for L1R5 - the best among us 3 siblings. But, Ah Gong can not longer see it...

the angel

# finance officer
# violinist
# clarinetist
# singer
# dancer
# bodhisattva of the earth

loves

# singing
# dancing
# music
# chocolate
# pink

wishes

# always be happy
# bring happiness to people
# to sing
# further education in communications

readings

# the alchemist
# the white russian
# falling leaves
# tuesdays with morrie
# the five people you meet in heaven
# for one more day
# the kite runner
# the little prince
# totto chan: the little girl at the window
# da vinci code
# digital fortress

fellow angels

*f.a.m.i.l.y*
:: mei.zi

*s.o.k.a*
:: alvin.khoo
:: huimin.loi
:: shuhui.tan

*t.p.s.d*
:: fabian.ng
:: jeraldine.tan
:: zhirhong.foo

*f.d*
:: boonhao.lim
:: future.division
:: jasmine.chew
:: joey.tay
:: yingqi.chen
:: yunting.chen

*s.n.c.o*
:: candy.chye
:: chelsea.ng
:: desmond.chew
:: guangyi.chua
:: jasmine.chye
:: kailing.shim
:: noven.chan
:: vanessa.lim
:: weili.liang

*f.r.i.e.n.d*
:: andre.hanz.lee

*s.t.o.r.e.s*
:: hampigal
:: pretty.pink.pink
:: the.sister.company
:: vogue.chamber

seeks

:: daisaku ikeda library
:: daisaku ikeda quotes
:: sgi
:: sgi experiences
:: ssa
:: ssa youths

past

:: February 2006
:: March 2006
:: April 2006
:: May 2006
:: June 2006
:: August 2006
:: September 2006
:: October 2006
:: November 2006
:: December 2006
:: January 2007
:: April 2007
:: May 2007
:: June 2007
:: July 2007
:: August 2007
:: September 2007
:: October 2007
:: November 2007